Y’know, I knew not having a job was gonna suck, but DAMN.
When I was trying to consider the positives to this whole situation, one of the things that I came up with was that having more free time would mean I’d be able to do more blogging. Yet, now that I’ve got that time, I can’t get the motivation.
The worst part is that I’m finding I can’t bring myself to do something I love. I end up using all this time for… well, nothing. I apply for jobs, then I just kind of vanish for a bit because I don’t know what else to do with myself. I actually know what I could do to feel better: go outside, write, cook a meal, that sort of thing, but damned if I just can’t make myself do it and I don’t even understand why!
I have to do something, so let’s set a goal. I will – I BLOODY WELL WILL – write one post for Let’s Watch Gurren Lagann today. I used to manage it while also supposedly doing work, so I sure as heck should be able to do it now!
I went through this exact same thing last year. When I was let go from my temp job, I spent a month out of work. I had plenty of time to write, but I couldn’t find the drive to actually do it. I was in a bit of a depression. One probably stemming from being out of work. Similarly, when I had my last surgery, I had a week off of work, but couldn’t bring myself to do anything productive.
But sometimes a break is in order. It sucks not having the urge to do something that you have a passion for, but forcing it doesn’t always help. I hope you can get out of your funk soon though!